Sunday, 6 July 2008

What am I supposed to do

Every contact i have had from you in the past 6 months goes to great pains to point out how nasty i am. Yes it hurts, i can see it's certainly meant to. i'm not giving in and getting upset over being constantly told about my cold hearted mean personality traits -you can continue to send spiteful texts and e mails if it helps you to remind me that i'm dreadful -i've been very hurt before and i've survived. I am sorry that after what you have told me I have been unable to continue our friendship on any level. I never in my days intended for you to get as offended as you have done. I took this and the letter to conclude that you felt more towards me than I initially thought. The potential repercussions my personal and professional life scared me rigid, especially as I had never intended nor welcomed the attention. As you've found to your cost, i don't do scared and vulnerable, I do do cold hearted as a mechanism to fend off upset. Hence my unbearable personlity traits.

I thought that the best way, after the considerable upset, was as you left it -that we would have contact at work where needed but otherwise leave each other alone. However, you again e mail and text me. I tried to give you your things back as asked for and you're offended that I can't give you them all back. Since you went to the detail of asking for the uneaten items I thought you would want to know where everything was, sorry, i thought it best to tell you rather than wait for you to ask for things. We're back to square one, I offend you if i try and explain myself and when i don't explain myself. Other than outright lies and false pretences or firing myself off into space(!) I can't see how I can resolve things.

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