Touche

I really have tried i'm afraid to resolve this in every way my emotionally stunted brain knows how. Letting it blow over, leaving you alone, being polite. I then poured out my most personal thoughts as I thought that may help you come to terms with things. As well as saying flattering things you hurt me a lot over the past months, I am not someone to show it and I think that makes you just try harder to get my attention, it's finally worked, i admit i'm hurt. The brutal honesty was necessary -I feel like you wanted me for a relationship by the paragraph in your letter that reads if my circumstances should ever change, this goes against a lot of your reassurances that you wanted nothing to happen between us but just admired me. From the letter I gather the awkwardness between us stems from the fact I have a romantic interest in you and is all my fault. My cynicism in men is cemented. You are clearly hurting and I'm fed up of apologising for your
hurt only to have it thrown back at me at every instance. I have sent countless communications in every one apologising, meaning it and beating myself up for the fact I can't make you happy. I'm realising that what i said weeks ago is true -I can do nothing right. I am not the person you thought I was. I shall therefore, be happy to revert to the initial plan which you wanted -that we have no contact.